25 years in the making

Well it is my 25th birthday today. My 25th milestone in this journey we all call 'life'. Boy that was not at all a smooth one. I stop for a while and take a look in both directions, to see how far I have come and how far I still have to go. More on that in the later posts. Down below is what I think of it:

i sit with hope,
yet losing touch with my dreams,
knowing i may not have another chance,
not knowing whether my soul is there or has died.

i need something else, someone else,
anything, anyone,
a change of heart, a change of mind,
whatever it takes, I’ll do it.

i need a new me, a new face, a new name,
will new clothes make me a better person?
will new friends make me better?
will i become someone else?
will do anything to escape this….

still have to go on with life,
with nothing to live for as of now,
just a day at a time, my soul slowly dies.
every night my mind cries,
knowing i have tried and i cannot lie to myself,
and always hoping for the one little opportunity,
will someday come alive.

a mistake twenty-five years in the making,
now it's a little too late.

Thank you all!!!!
I don't know whether you all will ever get what I've spilled up there, do try and if u dont please ask me.Don't come to any other conclusion. Still I've written it, it's mine all mine!!! hahahahahaha :)

Is ignorance bliss!! Is it really??

Two of my friends said something today that got me thinking. Sounds of impulses charging through started coming from my head. Well I do think a lot but not doing much lately. This heat is killing me. Anyway, the first was the question, “So what’s it better, depressed, unfunny intelligence or happy, carefree stupidity?” The basic essence of the question is that an intelligent person’s observation of things often leads to severe unhappiness, probably because they can see the but obvious faults or shortcomings in everything. Is that ignorance? Is that bliss? Do you agree?

I mean, wouldn’t it be great not to care much or know every aspect about anything that is not directly relevant to yourself or anyone at any one time? Not when phrased like that it would not, but how about:

-Not caring/knowing about the fact that over 3 million people died of AIDS last year.

-Not caring/knowing about human kind’s bloody and quite frankly disgusting history.

-Not caring/knowing of the fact how misleading the whole system is.

Then my friend (who is a bit philosophically inclined) did that cunning thing where he lead me into believing one argument when actuallly factually his views were the exact opposite, and then he just trapped me. He made a distinction (philosophical) between higher and lower joy (Material joy and stuff, you know?). Lower joy is a kind of animal/primitive joy, a nice thing, but is always confined, mainly to basic physical needs. Higher joy is something else, something unique to especially to humans, something that can only be achieved by creativity and mental stimulation and other stuff. We rounded off the conversation a fitting conclusion:

HIM: Well, the dog that has just had his food, and is lying in the sun will feel damn good.

ME: But if the dog that realizes how Mozart's symphonies, the Theory of relativity and/or The Matrix trilogy(which I still haven't understood!), all linked together, won’t he feel like, his distant cousin, an absolute tiger?

HIM: Exactly I say. Ekdum barobar!!

Confused? Well just ignore it,like amny other things. I do it sometimes too. It really helps haha.

But ignorance is not an excuse.
And if you think education is expensive -- try ignorance.

And I doubt that you would not have read this or will ever read what I write in the future, whatever it may be; if it were more than a page? Do read, it will help you gain some useless knowledge so prevalent in this world!

<<~inspireD writinG~>>