25 years in the making

Well it is my 25th birthday today. My 25th milestone in this journey we all call 'life'. Boy that was not at all a smooth one. I stop for a while and take a look in both directions, to see how far I have come and how far I still have to go. More on that in the later posts. Down below is what I think of it:

i sit with hope,
yet losing touch with my dreams,
knowing i may not have another chance,
not knowing whether my soul is there or has died.

i need something else, someone else,
anything, anyone,
a change of heart, a change of mind,
whatever it takes, I’ll do it.

i need a new me, a new face, a new name,
will new clothes make me a better person?
will new friends make me better?
will i become someone else?
will do anything to escape this….

still have to go on with life,
with nothing to live for as of now,
just a day at a time, my soul slowly dies.
every night my mind cries,
knowing i have tried and i cannot lie to myself,
and always hoping for the one little opportunity,
will someday come alive.

a mistake twenty-five years in the making,
now it's a little too late.

Thank you all!!!!
I don't know whether you all will ever get what I've spilled up there, do try and if u dont please ask me.Don't come to any other conclusion. Still I've written it, it's mine all mine!!! hahahahahaha :)