Smile?? :)

Smile is what most of them say. Even if you are upset,smile. C'mon, never get angry or what? This is stupid. Is this a kind of 'Neo-Gandhism' or what? And I may be wrong, but I consider anger an emotion.

Well anger is an emotion along with all the other emos. Moreover, it is a very important element in anyone’s life. If you don’t ever get angry, you are already dead! Then what should we do of anger? One should know how to control and channel his/her anger properly in order to smile after that. Anyway, should not all of these emotions/expressions be part of one's life? There should be a balance of all emotions, I say, otherwise if the emotional equilibrium collapses everyone knows what shit happens. Still many people say don't get angry just smile and forget it? Forget what? The insults and all that crap dumped on you at work, by friends and family, etc. And when they get angry no one sees that. Only a person’s anger is singled out many times. Well enough of that, now I’m getting angry. What I want to say remains as it is.

I sometimes hate the people for saying this five-letter word. Smile, as if it's that simple. Life is not always a photo opportunity to smile each and every time. If only it was that easy for everything to change in one facial expression. I wish that by turning up the corners of my mouth, I could change who I am, what and how I feel, what I want and everything stirring up inside my head.

Well about my much-awaited break from the routine, I still haven’t got the time  and hopefully I will as I’m going to Goa for work. Well forget it; things will get back to normal. All of them. I hope.

Haha as if smiling were the solution. Smile heeeeeeeeeeeeee

More later :)

The Biggest (Stupidest) Loser!

What kind of people are the biggest losers? Apart from the normal kind, I just came to know of a new kind of losers, generally called as The (really, really) Stupid Losers. Moreover, currently they have a new leader.
There is a person I know who belongs to the above category. I think friends are the most important assets you can ever lose in your life. Well a person can make new friends but it’s always very difficult to actually forget the old ones or break relations them. And if the person leaves around 40-50 good friends (girls and boys) all in one go, all at a single time; just to play with boys his own age (15-16 years old maybe physically, mental age unknown), with no justified reason, is the personification of silliness. And what do you call such a person? Well calling him stupid is an insult to all the less stupid people. Still we will use the word and term him as the “World’s worst and really the stupidest loser ever”. It may sound silly but please….
And I don’t understand. How can a person forget all that his friends have done for him? They have helped him in so many ways. On the other hand, how can one forget the times spent together, tolerating his stupid behavior and stuff. Or the harmless teasing and bantering, practical jokes, etc. There are bound to be some problems. Then what might be the reasons that may lead to this level of idiocy? Whatever the reasons maybe, they should be solid and believable. I mean a person, who can’t at times think for himself, take such a drastically brainless decision, which I am sure he will repent for the remainder of his life. Who will tolerate him elsewhere? I think, only an external influence can do this. And if this influence is coming from a girl/woman, then it is even more unintelligent. History tells us that in nearly half of the world’s troubles, women have played an important part. Well ladies no offence meant and I’m sorry, please don’t mind.
Basically it doesn’t matter if that person leaves, he was not forced to stay. Even when being so close to people, the absence is not going to be missed at all. And as rightly said, all these times he was just putting up a show for all others of how nice or good he is. Well whatever.

Just one thing for the person concerned, Leave!! Do whatever you wish, who cares? No one will care basically. It seems you never belonged here anyway. Play! We’ll see how you do it all by yourself. Good Luck! But I’ll say, think! It’s never late to rectify your stupid mistakes instead of regretting them later. If not they will come back to haunt you all your bloody life and you will know how good that was back there. If you ever realize that, it will be very late. Ha ha ha ha

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Royal Screw Up!!Sounds better :)

{ Well most of what written below had to be rewritten because of the overwhelming response it got. Well many people thought I was on the verge of a break down or I have lost it completely, which is not the case. I'm as good as I ever was. I just wrote what I thought and it doesn't matter much. So I had to edit it and pull up most of it. Too personal I guess. Please look at it as a piece of fiction/senseless writing as most of it is and overlook it. Thank you very much :) }

Life sucks. Most people'’s lives do normally but mine is really sucking right now. I can literally hear the sucking sound, a royal screw up you can say!

It seems whatever I do I tend to be unsuccessfull. Whether be it work, play or even, well trying to get a girl or any other thing, I'm screwing up royally. However, I know I am not that bad at all this but I do not know what's gotten into me nowadays. I don'’t know why all this is happening. Nevertheless, the thing I don'’t get is my stint with girls. In the past 8 years, whichever girls I liked or say loved were either taken, engaged or got married and very few were not at all interested. Ah, crap! I will see to that myself and deal with that issue properly. And yes, I did try. Hard! But I will still keep on trying. Anyway, I still don't get it; How much money does a person need to be happy? What is the problem then?

Well that is not all. Whatever I say these days is either unnoticed, unheard of or is often misunderstood. I can'’t even convey what I really want to say. (I understood. So rewritingitng it) A simple sentence I say/write transforms into an argument or anything else which I did not expect. With all these nice things’ happening, I feel miserable. I think misery is insisting on my company. Ha ha ha. Anyway, my temper is slowly slipping out of my control lately and so is my health I guess. In addition to my woes, there are things that I was sure of doing until a couple of days back. Now I am having second thoughts about them. And only on the work front, all is well and I wish it stays that way. Let'’s hope all things will get sorted.
They say, '‘It'’s just one of those days'’. I'’ll say, it'’s like a routine for me for the past month or so.

Maybe I should stop right now and take a break from all this! Maybe it will work out. Maybe?!?

Another thing. A very important declaration.
Some people have lost their sense of humor!!
Well if you find it, please return it to them cordially.
In the mean time, do not mess with any of them.
If you do, expect some really dodgy reactions.

<< Any resemblance to any one is purposefully coincidental >>

I Hate Mobile Phones.Aaargh!! Hmmm...Do I?

A year or two back, perhaps I was the only person in the world who had absolutely no desire to own one, let alone tolerate one.

It seems like 99% of the people who have them only have them because they believe it will impress everyone else. Wrong. No one cares if you have a tiny phone or one with a camera or any other phone with shitty stuff with you, no one honestly does! Even the rickshaw wallas and bus conductors have phones!

Mobiles do not = social status.

Now days people are always on their mobiles, I mean always talking on the phone. They chat about where they are, what they did that day, what they have planned for dinner, etc. But...perhaps I'm wrong, but I don't see the point of ringing up a rather large phone bill just so you can chat with your mates about the events of the day when you can do that much cheaper at home or just meet up at some place and go on blabbering about all.

If one were a parent, or some businessperson or a doctor that needs to be contacted all the time, they would probably have one. Otherwise, I do not see or never saw the point.

Moreover, people driving/riding with them...I cannot count how many times I have nearly been run over or been hold up behind a nutcase who was "driving/riding" and talking on their mobile. This is dangerous for other pedestrians. Why can’t they just stop to the side giving proper signal and talk the bloody day out? However, most people don’t. Therefore, I do my part to teach them a lesson or just piss them off. Whenever I see anyone talking on mobile while driving/riding, I just put my finger on the horn of me vehicle. Haha that really does the trick. Still a much dangerous way is just drive by very close to them, look back, and see the fun.

In addition, some people just don’t even have the common sense to not use the phones when in libraries, hospitals, theaters, temples, etc. and disturb other innocent people who eventually become the victims of their conversations. Alternatively, just keep the mobiles on silent mode and if anyone has the urge to talk go in some bloody corner and talk softly.

Well I've had people tell me I'm just bitter because I didn’t have one at that time. Err...no. The reason I didn’t own one was because I thought I did not need one. If I honestly wanted to talk to someone, I would find a pay phone. On the other hand, use the phone at home or office if I am not out and about.

But well things changed. I had to buy one anyway for some reason. Well it did help me in many ways but monetarily it hasn’t helped me a bit. It's gotten ridiculous, really ridiculous. It has become a necessity and a curse.

Heck, who cares. The words above are not going to change the situation. They might change my views but still I don’t even know whether I really need the mobile or not. Until then I will manage by using it and spending a good amount of money to feed and keep it ringing.

Till next time...

25 years in the making

Well it is my 25th birthday today. My 25th milestone in this journey we all call 'life'. Boy that was not at all a smooth one. I stop for a while and take a look in both directions, to see how far I have come and how far I still have to go. More on that in the later posts. Down below is what I think of it:

i sit with hope,
yet losing touch with my dreams,
knowing i may not have another chance,
not knowing whether my soul is there or has died.

i need something else, someone else,
anything, anyone,
a change of heart, a change of mind,
whatever it takes, I’ll do it.

i need a new me, a new face, a new name,
will new clothes make me a better person?
will new friends make me better?
will i become someone else?
will do anything to escape this….

still have to go on with life,
with nothing to live for as of now,
just a day at a time, my soul slowly dies.
every night my mind cries,
knowing i have tried and i cannot lie to myself,
and always hoping for the one little opportunity,
will someday come alive.

a mistake twenty-five years in the making,
now it's a little too late.

Thank you all!!!!
I don't know whether you all will ever get what I've spilled up there, do try and if u dont please ask me.Don't come to any other conclusion. Still I've written it, it's mine all mine!!! hahahahahaha :)

Is ignorance bliss!! Is it really??

Two of my friends said something today that got me thinking. Sounds of impulses charging through started coming from my head. Well I do think a lot but not doing much lately. This heat is killing me. Anyway, the first was the question, “So what’s it better, depressed, unfunny intelligence or happy, carefree stupidity?” The basic essence of the question is that an intelligent person’s observation of things often leads to severe unhappiness, probably because they can see the but obvious faults or shortcomings in everything. Is that ignorance? Is that bliss? Do you agree?

I mean, wouldn’t it be great not to care much or know every aspect about anything that is not directly relevant to yourself or anyone at any one time? Not when phrased like that it would not, but how about:

-Not caring/knowing about the fact that over 3 million people died of AIDS last year.

-Not caring/knowing about human kind’s bloody and quite frankly disgusting history.

-Not caring/knowing of the fact how misleading the whole system is.

Then my friend (who is a bit philosophically inclined) did that cunning thing where he lead me into believing one argument when actuallly factually his views were the exact opposite, and then he just trapped me. He made a distinction (philosophical) between higher and lower joy (Material joy and stuff, you know?). Lower joy is a kind of animal/primitive joy, a nice thing, but is always confined, mainly to basic physical needs. Higher joy is something else, something unique to especially to humans, something that can only be achieved by creativity and mental stimulation and other stuff. We rounded off the conversation a fitting conclusion:

HIM: Well, the dog that has just had his food, and is lying in the sun will feel damn good.

ME: But if the dog that realizes how Mozart's symphonies, the Theory of relativity and/or The Matrix trilogy(which I still haven't understood!), all linked together, won’t he feel like, his distant cousin, an absolute tiger?

HIM: Exactly I say. Ekdum barobar!!

Confused? Well just ignore it,like amny other things. I do it sometimes too. It really helps haha.

But ignorance is not an excuse.
And if you think education is expensive -- try ignorance.

And I doubt that you would not have read this or will ever read what I write in the future, whatever it may be; if it were more than a page? Do read, it will help you gain some useless knowledge so prevalent in this world!

<<~inspireD writinG~>>

Thank God!

I think I have been blessed
And I feel like I've found my way
I thank God for all I've been given
At the end of every day

I think I have been blessed
With so much more than I deserve
To be here with the ones that love me
To love them so much it hurts!!

Ameya